Confused (Pt. 2)

I am lost as shit.

You Have GOT To Be Shitting Me

Thanks to @FlyBoySanks for putting me on...

The newest in Certified Nigga Shit. I can already see it coming. Louis Vuitton has decided to fuck up the game with this newest agent in coonery.



Louis Vuitton Chopsticks

Yall know what this means right? It means that Lil Wayne is gonna be sportin these in the "Every Girl: Remix" video.

It means that the Real Housewives of America are going to have a fucking field day with it.

It means that JOHN EVERY NIGGA is gonna be runnin up to TOWSON TOWN CENTER to get a pair.

And while I wish I could, I can not, in good will, blame this on the white man *in my Uncle Ruckus voice*. The heads at Louis Vuitton knew what they were doing. They KNOW that their largest consumer, John and Sue Every Nigga, are gonna run out and get themselves a pair.

The D-Boys are gonna be at the Windsor Inn eating crabs with them.

The Hoodrats are gonna be putting them in their hair.

The Real Houswives are going to be poking their bubbies with them and throwing them at each other over dinner.

I'm going to be in my room curled up in a ball crying about what the world has come to.

I can't. I just fucking can't.

Emptiness

Okay, I cannot FUCKING BELIEVE the shit Twitter has put me through the last two days. I feel like a piece of me has been compromised , torn out and mutilated for the amusement of others.

What did I do before Twitter? Facebook? MySpace? Strictly for amateurs. I deleted my MySpace shortly after getting into the Twitter swing of things and haven't looked back since. Yesterday wasn't so bad cuz I was off work and watching a Hulu marathon of Desperate Housewives. But TODAY?! At work?! I'm fucking losing my mind. Facebook is okay, but it's more like my stepchild now...I get around to Facebook when I get around to it...Twitter is my true love, and there's an emptiness I have right now and it won't be fixed til I have it back!!

Can't people die from withdrawal symptoms?

The Evolution of MeMe

Haha whack right?

In the last year and a half or so I've been through A LOT. Nothin dramatic, just a lot of life changing occurrences. I graduated from Morgan, which was bittersweet. I love my school more than half of you will ever know. It is there I grew up and became a woman. But I will forever credit MSU for molding me into the person I am today.

The closer I got to graduation, the more sense some things made. I think the biggest one of all was learning how to let go of any and everything that did nothing but held me down or held me back. One was the "injustices" or wrongs I felt had been committed against me. As the time approached for me to walk across that stage, more and more I just kept thinking, "What's the point?" What's the point in holding on to hard feelings and negativity towards people who I may never see again? Or people that I could potentially be missing out on as great motivational life forces in my life? And it felt so good to let go. I could actually feel the weight being lifted off my shoulders, it was amazing.

But at the same time I was embracing some people, I realized it was time for me to let others go. And what got me the most was that it didn't really hurt much at all. What did it say about me and my feelings for those people? It didn't take me long to realize that the sun had set on those friendships well before I learned that I had to let go. In order for me to grow and evolve I had to let go of those that were not moving in the same direction as I. My priorities had changed. I was no longer a college student, but a college graduate. I had rent and bills and STUDENT LOANS that were now my life, not parties and who's doing what. And it was so damn IRRITATING to watch these people concern themselves with the affairs of others, especially when all of theirs were not in order. Some didn't understand and misjudged me for it, saying I thought I was better than others because I now had a degree and blah Blah BLAH. Are you serious?! For 7 months after graduating I was still waiting tables! And even now I'm still not exactly utilizing my degree, although it does help ;-) But no really this is what you think of me? Fine. I'll keep working on getting myself out of debt and making something of myself while you....what is it that you're doing again?

Haha that was rude. But no seriously, why attach myself to people of that nature? More negativity that serves no purpose but to eat at me alive. Especially when I'm having such a hard time trying to figure out exactly what it is that I want to do and be. Look at me talking all my shit without an answer to the questions that only I have the answers to. But I'm okay with that. I want to teach, I want to write, I want to do anything that'll help give me the definition that I'm looking for. That's what my 20s are for right? RIGHT?!

Anyway, just another random rant, something to get off my chest to hopefully propel me further into the right direction (whatever that may be) and confirm that I'm going about my life in the right way (whichever way that may be).