If The Whole World Has To Answer Right Now, Just To Tell You Once Again....

EPIC. The ULTIMATE performer. The INCOMPARABLE KING OF POP.

On June 25, 2009 at 2:26 pm the world lost its greatest performer of all time. Maybe I'm biased but he was indeed the greatest to ever grace the stage.

How can one adequately put into words the man and his music? I don't know but I can only write what he meant to me. With 13 Grammy Awards, over 750 Million albums sold world wide and TWO inductions into the Rock and Roll Hall Of Fame, there is no wonder why he is the source behind so many artists' inspiration. His artistic genius was parallel to none.

If it weren't for Michael, whose moves would they be trying to emulate? If it weren't for Michael would artists even be dancing in their videos? Whose iconic status would they be spending all their lives to achieve?

But in the wake of this man's death why are others so intent on continuing to demonize his name and his character? We all know the allegations that have surrounded him for the past 16 years. But I wasn't there. Were you? No. So I don't know what did or did not happen. And honestly? It's not my business. Nor is it yours. And even if he DID do all of what has been accused of him, who are we to judge? To my understandind all sin is equal in the Kingdom of God. That doesn't automatically make him a monster. As far as I'm concerned he was never given the chance as a man, as a person. As a true star he was never expected to make mistakes, to be perfect. But I'm sorry I personally cannot honestly say I would be able to effectively handle a habitually abusive father and the pressure of pure stardom beginning at the age of 11. How was he supposed to thrive without the traditional childhood of people coming up at that point in time?

And PLEASE, someone explain to me what is so damn funny about a man dying? He is DEAD, show some respect! The insensitivity displayed by some people this week is astounding. Perez Hilton deserved to get hit because he's gay? Because everyday he talks about people on his blog? I KNOW that MOST of you people go home and talk about someone you know, whether it be personally or a celebrity. So what's so different from what he's doing than what you're doing?

Alright, now with that said, EXPLAIN to me why it's okay to defame this man's name and character in the wake of his death? Because he ALLEGEDLY molested little boys? I reiterate, YOU WEREN'T THERE! I'm not saying it's not a possibility but the man is dead. No longer able to defend himself. And you're SICK to think it's okay.

I say all that to say I am deeply saddened by today's events. For those who really know me, know that I am a true fan of the King of Pop. We have truly lost one of music's greatest and most influential stars and music will NEVER be the same. If you can't understand just what this means to our culture then please, I URGE you, to remove yourself from my blog. You are not welcome here. Not to compare the two as people, but as iconic images of their respective generations, the death of our star is almost parallel to what it meant to our parents upon hearing about the death of Dr. King. It's goes deep for us, touches our souls, and brings us together as people.

“I am absolutely devastated at this tragic and unexpected news. For Michael to be taken away from us so suddenly at such a young age, I just don’t have the words. Divinity brought our souls together on The Wiz and allowed us to do what we were able to throughout the 80’s. To this day, the music we created together on “Off The Wall,” “Thriller” and “Bad” is played in every corner of the world and the reason for that is because he had it all…talent, grace, professionalism and dedication. He was the consummate entertainer and his contributions and legacy will be felt upon the world forever. I’ve lost my little brother today, and part of my soul has gone with him.” ~ Quincy Jones

Watch this boy move!

Jackson

CNS (Cont'd)

Okay so some of my friends have asked for a list of Certified Nigga Shit. Feel free to add your own. Be it behavior, speech, clothing, whatever the case may be.

1. One day at Wal-Mart my friend and I snuck her Yorkie puppy in. One of the employees saw him and asked "Do him bite?" Bitch WHAT?!

2. Polices. "Police" is already plural. Sit ya ignorant ass down.

3. Tiny & Toya. Nuff said.

4. For the last time.....conversate is NOT a word! Read a book.

5. Colored contacts. It's 2009. Think about it.

6. Post-Dated Checks. I work for a bank and that shit is ULTRA ignorant. You don't have the money. Maybe you shouldn't have spent your last $5 on that dress at Gallo.

7. Blaming your inability to find a job on "The Man". Maybe you shouldn't have dropped out of the 7th grade. Maybe you shouldn't have smoked that blunt the night before your pee test. Stop expecting for people to "accept you for who you are" when you got 3 different colors in your head and all your tattoos showing at a BANK interview.

8. Stop making up names for your children. If it ain't in the "Big Book of Baby Names" then it doesn't belong on paper. Everything can't be Swahili.

9. Yung Berg, Hurricane Chris, Pretty Ricky....all them clowns.

10. This shit.

Just Another Sad Love Song

Okay now that my rant's over this is what I came on here to do originally.

As I've said before, some of my friends think that I'm heartless. NOT TRUE!

But with that said, let it be known: I HATE LOVE SONGS!

Not all, but most. And I know there are some GREAT singers/artists out there but I just can't get with the program. I hate people singin bout how sad in love they are, how happy in love they are, how someone is their everything, and all that other pussy shit. I honestly can't remember the last R&B album I purchased. Besides Queen Bey :0) But I truly believe this is why chicks are so sad when their relationships don't work out. Cuz you listening to these sad ass songs that are further adding to your sad ass life. LOL. But no really.

If the artist's last name isn't Isley, Wonder, Badu, or Wind and Fire I really ain't tryna hear it.

And Keyshia Cole? No ma'am. She slays me the most. I like her upbeat stuff and all but that bitch is sad about every man EVER. That's what you get for proposing to Jeezy.

This is why people think I'm insensitive and all but I just can't rock with it. I'll buy a rap or hip-hop album in a heartbeat. I'll support Hov Daddy and Weezy Yeezy and Jeezy before I'll buy someone's sad ass love song.

Black Embarrassment Television: CNS

Okay so tonite was the season finale of College Hill: South Beach. I haven't watched College Hill in years, and tonite reminded me why. I don't why they were fighting but the shit was ridiculous. But I think I was more upset by the commercials for Tiny (T.I.'s Forever Fiance) and Toya (Weezy's Ex-Wife). I mean really WHAT THE FUCK?! I mean they can't help being ghetto but REALLY BET?! You think this is quality programming? Who really cares about these two? Maybe I'm acting sadiddy but I can't help if that aint what I come from. I don't know who's running things over at Black Entertainment Television but something's gotta give. I know things have changed from when I was growing up but what happened to Teen Summit? I hope the rumors of bringing it back are true. BET Nightly News? Video Soul? The REAL Rap City with Joe Cleezy and Big Lez? Only time I ever purposely turn to BET is if there's actual quality programming on. A good documentary or perhaps a classic episode of "227". I can't believe this is the same network that airs gospel for 5 hours in the morning. I've urged you once and I urge you again, please, Please, PLEASE, BOYCOTT BET! All they do is broadcast Certified Nigga Shit. Just cuz they've thrown "The Game" (which I could never get into) into the lineup doesn't make things better. Where's the intellectual stimulation? The thought-provoking interviews? I'm not claiming to be perfect and all that is Black and Holy but I'm also smart enough to know there's more to life than BIG ASS CHAINS and "educated" college students rumbling Springer-Style. Yes I enjoy stanky-legging on occasion but I also know there's more to life! I'm so scared for this generation coming up because the media is fucking with their minds so bad they don't know right from wrong, up from down. But as for myself I am determined to stay away from Black Embarrassment Television and Certified Nigga Shit.

Excuse me while I Swag Surf.

Some Random Makings

Remember that annoying ass fad on Facebook "25 Random Things About Me"? Well here are mine...and some new ones too

1. If I don't evenly alternate chewing food on both sides of my mouth I feel off balance...and have been accused several times of having OCD.

2. Despite my friends thinking I'm cruel and heartless, I'm really old-fashioned and eagerly look forward to the day I'm barefoot and pregnant and cooking breakfast for my husband.

3. Actually thought at age 5 that I would marry MC Hammer when I grew up.

4. I think gay men that don't like Beyonce aren't really gay. I've never heard of such a thing. They act gay to get closer to the pussy.

5. When I was younger I couldn't remember if I was born in 1985 or 1958.

6. I love the smell of gasoline.

7. I also love driving past H&S Bakery in downtown Baltimore/Fells Point. LOVE the smell of baking bread.

8. I'm deathly afraid of needles but have 3 tattoos and want as many more as professionally possible.

9. I once cried when my Daddy left after dropping me off at school...as a junior at Morgan.

10. I used to think pink and red were boyfriend and girlfriend.

11. I absolutely hate, loathe, and despise Angelica Pickles and Ruby from "Max and Ruby".

12. I wished that I had brothers, I feel that presence could've taught me a lot and prevented a lot of heartache.

13. I'm not the biggest fan of the elderly.

14. Wonder how people would feel if the tables were turned and we just elected the first white President.

15. Don't know who we fought in World War I....?

16. I refuse to listen to "Ether" by Nas.

17. Before 9/11 I thought the World Trade Center was in Chicago.

18. Want to foster and/or adopt as many kids as I can before I die.

19. I have the entire 10 seasons of "Friends" on DVD and know most episodes by heart.

20. I've never been off the East Coast, let alone the United States.

21. Despite loving my roots I hate PG County.

22. When I'm home alone I swear I'm Jay-Z.

23. I have never seen a Chevy with the butterfly doors.

24. After being totally honest with myself realized I only have 5 real friends. Many close people to me that I love but those 5 women keep me going.

25. I'm very self-conscious about my body. Large breasts are sometimes very problematic. As well as backfat and lovehandles. But according to some I'm still sexy....that's gotta count for something!

The Great Unknown

Mmmkaayyy, so you see at the top of the page where it says "The Random Makings of Me"? Y'all didn't think I was playing did you?! LOL because as thoughts come they're going HERE, you know, whatever's too much or too heavy for Facebook and Twitter. So one of the things that's been at the forefront of my mind lately (well everyday) is......

MY FUTURE!!!!

And it's some scary shit. Not seriously, I'm getting to a point in my life where I'm looking to the next plateau in my life and what are the most important things for me to achieve and blah blah BLAH, and I am frikkin petrified. So this is all the shiz that's running through my mind and stressin me the hell out:

#1: FINANCIAL FREEDOM! You see, I was one of those dumbasses in college that thought "Okay, I'll open up one credit card, and since I have a steady income (Victoria's Secret, *scoff*) I can pay it off no problem!" Well funnily enough, I signed up for that VS card before I actually was offered the position, but I knew I was gonna get that job. Anyway, following that card came Express. And I mean why not! I got 20% off because I worked at Victoria's Secret. Followed by The Gap. Because I fukkin LOVE The Gap. They have some pretty nice over-priced shit. That was all in less than 3 months of each other. Then for some reason I thought a credit card through Bank of America was a bright idea. Followed by a Sidekick. Next thing you know I was paying bills and credit card balances on a $25o bi-weekly salary and spending way more than I was earning. I eventually paid off The Gap and Express and closed them (bad idea), but 5 jobs later I'm still paying for mistakes I made in 2006! And I'm trying to make moves like....

#2: BUYING A HOUSE! If I wasn't in such dire financial straits all of my money would be going into a mortgage and maintenance of my first home! Because the market sucks so bad right now I could have gotten a STEAL on one of these foreclosed or dilapidated homes, fixed it up, and turning a profit as we speak! I'm hoping to get myself together and by 2011 be ready to purchase my first home! Hopefully rates will still be decent by then....a Catch-22 if we're out of this recession by then, the rates won't be as good but maybe I'll be able to afford a 12.5% 30-year mortgage (or whatever) *keeps fingers crossed*.

#3: GRAD SCHOOL! Okay, for those who don't know me I HATE SCHOOL!!!

Don't get me wrong, I love gettin brain (hehe) but I HATE homework! My current career goal (cuz it damn sure ain't being a bank teller) is to be an elementary school teacher. I love the bebes, but I went to school for communications studies/radio production. Soooo yeah, I need to become qualified to teach the youngins. And I don't plan on teaching them ProTools or about stop sets or none of that shiz, so I want to get my master's in early childhood education. So y'all keep me in your prayers cuz that's the only way I'll be able to make it through...that and a picture of Souljah Boy taped to my wall (he makes money but the boy lacks guidance).

#4: BECOME A WIFE AND MOTHER: Some of my friends think I have no heart. That I'm dead inside. But I really want to be someone's wife and later the mother of their children. Though I have no time or age limit, I'm getting to the point where I want someone that loves and compliments me and we both want a family. And more importantly, I know I deserve all of these things...in due time of course :0)

Baby fever though....I dunno if it's cuz my best friend is delivering my goddaughter within the next 3 weeks, or if it's cuz it's Baby Week on Discovery Health, or because I've always loved babies but I want one! CALM DOWN, I'm not gonna go around and TRY to get pregnant cuz I can barely afford myself but motherhood is indeed my ultimate goal.

Uuhhh I guess that's really all I wanted to say. Writing it out has calmed my nerves.....for now.

I Don't Understand...

OKAY. So today this dude pissed me off. We went to high school together but rarely, IF EVER spoke. But anyway, not long ago he requested me on FB and pretty soon, we began to follow each other on Twitter, and I don't remember why but I gave him my number. He promotes parties down back home (PG/DC), and would only hit me up to tell me about some damn party.

So a few weeks ago he texts me THREE times in a row to tell me about some damn party, in the middle of the week all the way in DC and I live in Baltimore. So I said no, and told him to stop texting me about dumbass party, one that he had already invited me to TWICE on Facebook. So today, he text me, and I'd had enough, and said:

"No. Stop texting me about parties or lose my number."

To which he replied:

"I could of swore I took you off. Girl fuk ure number. Always fukn crying. I tell you ya dumb females kill me."

Ummm...DID I MISS SOMETHING?!

How am I dumb for not wanting you to send me messages about A PARTY?! But even still, who are YOU, virtually a stranger, nonetheless, to call me out my name?

The worst part for me is that I didn't say nothing else to dude! LOL...I am NOT one to back down from a fight, but it shows me that I'm growing :0)

But no really, is he mad cuz he was tryna get his "hustle on"? Or maybe he's mad cuz he wanted to get at me? Someone PLEASE help me to understand!

Real Quick....

I'm working on another blog but I just had to let something be known real quick!

GENTLEMEN: Jean Paul Gaultier is NOT a body splash, it is a cologne! Please stop overdoing it!! Just because we know it's a designer fragrance and cost you $65 for 3 oz. DOES NOT mean us ladies are going to fall at your feet because we smelled you from a mile away! We're falling at your feet because we choked on your stench! Shit give me a man with AXE (moderately sprayed) anyday.

Act Like A Lady, Think Like A Man

Okaayyy so I know I'm a little late but I finally read Steve Harvey's "Act Like A Lady, Think Like A Man":

.....GOOD SHIT! LOL I know much of what he said should be common sense for every grown woman, but the man drops some knowledge. Much of which I already knew, but I got a much better understanding of some things that had me stumped at times. But here are what I feel were the most important and useful points of the book (in my Cliffnotes version, lol):

**Unless he feels like he has established himself as a man, he's not going to establish you as his woman. If he's really the one you want to be with, sit your ass down til it's your turn! Don't try to force him into anything because he'll resent you for it, and honestly, if he's a real man, he won't stand for it. Get a man with goals, short-term and long-term. If he doesn't even have his short-term figured out ain't NO WAY you're going to be incorporated into his long-term.

**Men are simple creatures. Minimalists that thrive off of basic male necessities. Ladies, you know how we say the smallest things make us happy? The same thing goes for him! As Mr. Dave Chappelle says, "Make him a sandwich, play with his balls, and don't talk so much!" LMFAO no ladies I'm just kidding.

However, I must also add that just because you want a man with goals and a plan doesn't mean jump on the first man that comes along! Ladies let's set our standards high and expect the man we want to reach for the bar and go above and beyond. We've all got too much going for ourselves to settle for less than the best. And as friends we need to keep reminding each other how great we really are.

I cannot and will not get into all that he had to say but he did indeed give me validation and why I don't regret being single since 2004. Some men just ain't ready for it! LOL (but no seriously), this has also given me time to grow and mature as woman into the person I want myself to be...to quote (don't judge me) Souljah Boy: "Be yourself, everybody else is already taken."

Seriously though ladies, it's a good read! It's not a man telling you how to live your life, it's a man offering some insight to a man's mind and how to handle certain situations. You're not obligated to take his advice. But don't say you weren't warned when he takes your cookie and runs and you wondering why his number don't work no mo'.

STAMP.