MISSED ME?!

Wishing I had the motivation to keep up with this thing like I should! Updates:

QUIT THE COLLECTIONS AGENCY!!! That job stressed me out like no other....collections is DRAINING. Besides getting cussed out everyday, several times a day, it was hard for me to press people out for money they didn't have. Now of course there must be a sense of ownership and accountability you must have in creating debt, but I can't very well hold you accountable for financial hardship when times are hard for most. And having people cry in your ear was the worst!! That definitely wasn't the industry for me.

So now I work for Comcast, basically doing billing and customer service, something I'm good at. Took a slight pay cut but as I learned with the collections agency, it's not ALWAYS about money. But I am making it up by saving in gas money cuz I'm closer to home, and of course FREE CABLE!!! Plus I'll be making GOOD commission. So I'm a pretty happy frikkin camper.

I TURNED 25 ON FEBRUARY 3RD!!! I'M A GROWN UP NOW!!!!

Comcast will be the first step to me owning my first home. The official goal is Summer 2012. Whether I stay in my current position or another I plan on staying with Comcast for the next few years and milking these discounts for all they're worth! So keep me in your prayers!!

Hopefully I'll be back sooner than later....*BESOS*

Real Quick

I was supposed to have been in the shower 20 minutes ago.

I miss you guys! I haven't been feeling very inspired lately.

I hate my job.

I left the bank (which I hated), to work in collections (which I think I hate more). As mean as I can be at times I don't think ANYone deserves to get cussed out on the daily. And yes, I knew what I was getting into before I came on board, but damn. It's not just that though. Some of my coworkers who have been there way longer seem just as unhappy. They've been in the industry way longer but there's so much BS with my particular company, I wouldn't be surprised to not see a coworker or two come back. It's very draining.

But with that said once again I'm on the job hunt. I took a few career aptitude tests online last night (and woke up to a few pieces of junk mail--oh joy), and one recommended I go into business. Business what? Regardless, not interested. The other recommended retail/hospitality. I did Victoria's Secret for two years. I went back for a quick buck Black Friday '08...in my Dave Chappelle voice...."MMMM NEVER AGAIN!" But hospitality....now that's a possibility. Hotel, that is, can't go back to food service, which apparently falls into that category. We'll see. I'll look into it. For now, Career Builder and USAJOBS are my current best friends.

Aight maybe I should go get in the shower. BESOS!

Update

I haven't written in a long time. I honestly don't have shit to write about but I am bored as HELL at work.

Lately I've been reading multiple blogs, Tweets, and Facebook statuses and I am frightened by the outlook young Black people have on relationships and their views of the opposite sex. Let me tell you now, this post is gonna be jumping all over the place, so bear with me.

Apparently relationships are a game, not to be taken seriously when it comes to reciprocity, respect, and honesty. It's more like "Screw you over before you can do it to me." Many in our generation (and the generations before us) have the belief that EVERYONE cheats. Man, woman, it doesn't matter.

FUCK. THAT.

I would NEVER, COULD never do that to someone I love. Even if I DIDN'T love his ass, you best believe I'm leaving him before I cheat on him. Why be with someone if my feelings aren't strong enough to respect him and our relationship? Fuck being comfortable. I don't believe in being with someone if my feelings are lukewarm and I'd rather spend time alone than be with that person. Fuckalldat, take ya ass on.

So with that said, NO, I'm not cheating on my significant other. That's gon be my baby, my ace boon boom pow, my #1, n all that other mushy shit. But it's evident that many of my colleagues and counterparts don't feel the same way. Ladies using men for money and material things, men using women for sex and calling them out their names. Now none of this is new but that doesn't make any of it less disheartening.

Pardon me for being a HOPELESS romantic. Now don't get me wrong, I'm also a realist and know that no relationship will ever be perfect, but with that kind of attitude and mindset any relationship is destined to fail. In no way do I think every encounter or date I have could be the beginning of my wildest dream coming true, but shit everyone's gonna get the benefit of the doubt.

Ugh. I don't even feel like talking about this anymore. Maybe I'll revisit the topic later. Right now it's actually depressing me. ANYWAY....UPDATE time.

-FINALLY GOT MY CAR!!! Woohoooooo....her name is Purple Reign and she's a 2000 Honda Civic LX. I've scratched her hubcaps several times. LOL. Gettin better tho.

My car makes me feel like....a natural woman. Like no shit. Not gonna get into a bunch of detail and have a whole therapy session but catching that bus made me feel....you know?? Anyway, glad she's here, my number one bitch :0)

-Hopefully I'll have a new job soon. Being mobile opens up SO many more options for me job-wise and it's way beyond time for me to get up out that bank. The devil greets me at the door everyday.

-Hopefully in January I'll be starting school to become a dental hygienist. Yeah that may be a communications degree down the drain but that industry (particularly radio) just lost its appeal to me about a year or so before graduation. I'm gonna try and take some tests before enrollment to see if I can figure out my "dream" in order to not waste money but....as my mother said, my "dream" may not be in the workforce. She worked in order to retire, not because it was something she wanted to do. I might be the same way and if that's the case, I'll be okay with that. But at least let my job/career be something I can make good money in.

-I'm dating a guy. I like him. He's tall and funny and smart.

-I haven't watched "Fresh Prince"" in a while. That makes me sad.

TaTa for now!

Confused (Pt. 2)

I am lost as shit.

You Have GOT To Be Shitting Me

Thanks to @FlyBoySanks for putting me on...

The newest in Certified Nigga Shit. I can already see it coming. Louis Vuitton has decided to fuck up the game with this newest agent in coonery.



Louis Vuitton Chopsticks

Yall know what this means right? It means that Lil Wayne is gonna be sportin these in the "Every Girl: Remix" video.

It means that the Real Housewives of America are going to have a fucking field day with it.

It means that JOHN EVERY NIGGA is gonna be runnin up to TOWSON TOWN CENTER to get a pair.

And while I wish I could, I can not, in good will, blame this on the white man *in my Uncle Ruckus voice*. The heads at Louis Vuitton knew what they were doing. They KNOW that their largest consumer, John and Sue Every Nigga, are gonna run out and get themselves a pair.

The D-Boys are gonna be at the Windsor Inn eating crabs with them.

The Hoodrats are gonna be putting them in their hair.

The Real Houswives are going to be poking their bubbies with them and throwing them at each other over dinner.

I'm going to be in my room curled up in a ball crying about what the world has come to.

I can't. I just fucking can't.

Emptiness

Okay, I cannot FUCKING BELIEVE the shit Twitter has put me through the last two days. I feel like a piece of me has been compromised , torn out and mutilated for the amusement of others.

What did I do before Twitter? Facebook? MySpace? Strictly for amateurs. I deleted my MySpace shortly after getting into the Twitter swing of things and haven't looked back since. Yesterday wasn't so bad cuz I was off work and watching a Hulu marathon of Desperate Housewives. But TODAY?! At work?! I'm fucking losing my mind. Facebook is okay, but it's more like my stepchild now...I get around to Facebook when I get around to it...Twitter is my true love, and there's an emptiness I have right now and it won't be fixed til I have it back!!

Can't people die from withdrawal symptoms?

The Evolution of MeMe

Haha whack right?

In the last year and a half or so I've been through A LOT. Nothin dramatic, just a lot of life changing occurrences. I graduated from Morgan, which was bittersweet. I love my school more than half of you will ever know. It is there I grew up and became a woman. But I will forever credit MSU for molding me into the person I am today.

The closer I got to graduation, the more sense some things made. I think the biggest one of all was learning how to let go of any and everything that did nothing but held me down or held me back. One was the "injustices" or wrongs I felt had been committed against me. As the time approached for me to walk across that stage, more and more I just kept thinking, "What's the point?" What's the point in holding on to hard feelings and negativity towards people who I may never see again? Or people that I could potentially be missing out on as great motivational life forces in my life? And it felt so good to let go. I could actually feel the weight being lifted off my shoulders, it was amazing.

But at the same time I was embracing some people, I realized it was time for me to let others go. And what got me the most was that it didn't really hurt much at all. What did it say about me and my feelings for those people? It didn't take me long to realize that the sun had set on those friendships well before I learned that I had to let go. In order for me to grow and evolve I had to let go of those that were not moving in the same direction as I. My priorities had changed. I was no longer a college student, but a college graduate. I had rent and bills and STUDENT LOANS that were now my life, not parties and who's doing what. And it was so damn IRRITATING to watch these people concern themselves with the affairs of others, especially when all of theirs were not in order. Some didn't understand and misjudged me for it, saying I thought I was better than others because I now had a degree and blah Blah BLAH. Are you serious?! For 7 months after graduating I was still waiting tables! And even now I'm still not exactly utilizing my degree, although it does help ;-) But no really this is what you think of me? Fine. I'll keep working on getting myself out of debt and making something of myself while you....what is it that you're doing again?

Haha that was rude. But no seriously, why attach myself to people of that nature? More negativity that serves no purpose but to eat at me alive. Especially when I'm having such a hard time trying to figure out exactly what it is that I want to do and be. Look at me talking all my shit without an answer to the questions that only I have the answers to. But I'm okay with that. I want to teach, I want to write, I want to do anything that'll help give me the definition that I'm looking for. That's what my 20s are for right? RIGHT?!

Anyway, just another random rant, something to get off my chest to hopefully propel me further into the right direction (whatever that may be) and confirm that I'm going about my life in the right way (whichever way that may be).