"And then I got to Memphis. And some began to say the threats, or talk about the threats that were out. What would happen to me from some of our sick white brothers? Well, I don't know what will happen now. We've got some difficult days ahead. But it doesn't matter with me now. Because I've been to the mountaintop. And I don't mind. Like anybody, I would like to live a long life. Longevity has its place. But I'm not concerned about that now. I just want to do God's will. And He's allowed me to go up to the mountain. And I've looked over. And I've seen the promised land. I may not get there with you. But I want you to know tonight, that we, as a people, will get to the promised land. And I'm happy, tonight. I'm not worried about anything. I'm not fearing any man. Mine eyes have seen the glory of the coming of the Lord" ~ Martin Luther King, Jr., April 3, 1968

No Title Needed....Well Not By Me

Let's Touch Bases...

I don’t do shit for people I don’t like. I don’t do shit for recognition. So if I don’t consider you a friend I won’t do shit for you. I love my friends to the depths within. If I do anything for you it’s out of love. Not to say I did it. Or to throw it back in your face or hang it over your head. So miss me with that shit.

Breffast TIme

If you know me at all, you know how much I LOVE this commercial

You Say I'm The One That Got Away....

You know what burns? (Save your Kat Stacks jokes for later, I'm trying to be serious.) Being disappointed by someone you've put your time and trust in. And I know we all get disappointed from time to time, it's a part of life, but the shit still pisses me off. And yes, I know I can't always get my way and blah blah blah, but for real, for serious though? The shit is obnoxious.

When someone sets an expectation for you of themselves, you'd expect for them to deliver, right? Why give your word and not stand by it?

Several weeks ago, a friend was home from out of town that I hadn't seen in years. The week prior when he first told me he was coming up we had been on the phone catching up and he told me he really wanted to see me. The feeling was mutual, and I never see him when he's here. So what did I do? The next day at work I go and take a day off for the following week to spend with said friend. I let him know, he says "Cool." We make no real plans, just plan to be "spontaneous". "All I know is that I'm going to see you."

Well fuck spontaneity. I sat in the house all that day waiting to hear from dude for me to get one text letting me know he was being held up. Needless to say I went about my day with my homegirl without hearing from him the rest of the day. You know I would have been PISSED had I not gotten paid for that day?? Lucky for him I got (had, lol) plenty of PTO to spare but that's beside the point.

You know the worst of it all? I never got an apology. No "I'm sorry you took off work for nothing." Just a couple TwitPics to the general public as what the hold up was, though my understanding was that it had been corrected prior to his trip up, but again, neither here nor there. Fact of the matter is, time is money and you wasted mine.

I just don't understand this coming from someone who seemed so gung ho about rebuilding our friendship to finally take things further. Wouldn't you like to NOT fuck shit up AGAIN like you did previously? Yeah I know we had that conversation but still. You say I'm the one that got away, yet you seem intent on letting me go. And I refuse to hold my breath. I got enough going on in my life, I told you I needed support and you obviously seem to be incapable of delivery.

I guess this is my rant to him seeing as how I never got the chance to before, what with me never receiving that apology and all. Haven't spoken a word to him since. But I originally started writing this to talk about my disappointment from today. Don't even feel like getting into another story, especially cuz I ended up having a pretty damn good day. Bottom line, people need to stop promising and then failing to deliver. You're hurting others probably more than you realize.

New Kanye - Devil In A New Dress

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The Average Twitter User's Tweet Itinerary

Courtesy of Mr. @Ar_Aye_Gee17:

1. Wake up and thank God/give a quote about getting to this $$$.

2. Customary #np tweet - the song is always 'my jam', because as we know, it belongs to them and them only.

3. RT ya friends constantly, making sure to add the appropriate laughing acronym.

4. This is around the time where people are hungry and go to lunch, twitpic their food,and explain what theyre eatin in detail.

4a. By this time their lunch is cold now.

5. The classic 'im ready to get off work/wanna find a new job' tweet.

6. Cant forget, tweet the latest celebrity/sports news and gossip. Whoever get RT'ed first broke the story. -_-

7. A inspirational middle of the day tweet..followed by......

8. I cant wait for HAPPY HOUR! ....umm, what?

9-14. Are always somethin yall see, or something yall about to do, ALWAYS.

15. Some sort of lyric from a song. 50% of the time its whatevers hot right now or Lil Wayne.

16. A "profound" thought from a celeb, that just has to be RT'ed by you and 100+ others.

17. After ur long contradictory day, u tell ya Twitter fam 'goodnight tweeps'

Are YOU guilty?! B*tch I might be.

Enjoy!!

Publish Post

Bienvenido a Miami

I don't like basketball.

I mean, I don't HATE it. I guess it can be pretty exciting at times, but I'm a football kind of girl. Where you can knock people on their asses or clean the fcuk out but it's okay because it's part of the game! That's where my heart lies.

But there's my disclaimer. So with that said...I cannot BELIEVE the flack Lebron James is getting for leaving Cleveland and going to Miami. Burning his jersey?? The owner blasting him in an open letter to the fans?? The more days that go by the more upset I get. He betrayed you?? After 7 years and no ring he BETRAYED you?? For 7 years he was your golden child but now that he's leaving he was a curse because he never won a ring?! To the put the weight and success of a team/franchise squarely on the shoulders of ONE 25-year-old man is ABSURD. If I was a player for the Cavs I'd feel like I just got shitted on because you're basically saying that my presence on the team is irrelevant. Because my name aint Lebron James.

I understand he was your revenue generator for the past 7 years but come on. Clearly he wasn't happy. I don't know about yall but I for damn sure ain't gonna stay somewhere I'm not happy (Just look how often I change jobs). And he signed for a lower amount so that the team would be able to bring on other free agents (I've taken a pay cut too). If a man takes LESS money to go to another team for happiness and the potential to win a ring, what's the big deal? Isn't that what players enter the NBA and the NFL for?? To show off their talent, get rich, and WIN A RING?! I'm no sports expert so maybe I'm missing something. But if memory serves me correctly, the maximum sentence for indentured servitude was 7 years. Did he not fulfill the requirement, Dan Gibson?

Okay so maybe he didn't go about announcing his decision the best way but then HE DONATED IT ALL TO CHARITY!! Close to $2.5 million to the Boys and Girls Club of America. Which also got a chance to advertise during the hour-long special. And you know these ragamuffins these days need as much guidance as they can get. Oh but that still makes him selfish right?? Fcuk outta here.

Man Lebron congratulations. And Savannah call me if you need backup to keep these hoes away.

Due to circumstances beyond either of our control, my most recent venture into the world of dating has been cut short.

Good dude. Similar interests. Great times. Life happens.

The older I get the easier situations become to handle, yet the harder they are on the mind and spirit.

Adulthood hit full on this time and I can't remember ever being faced with a harder situation. But funnily enough, it has nothing to do with me.

But no one died. So it can't all be bad.

Heheheheheh

I aint shit sooooo that's probably why this video has me rollin

Quite a few things on my mind this evening.

Number 1, Brav-fucking-O to The Boondocks Season Three Premier tonite. Well worth the wait. I laughed or course but I was also reminded of the delusional Black folk who voted for the Brother Obama for all the wrong reasons. Best believe I was singin Young Jizzle from the Bottom of the Map as much as everyone else but I made sure I read up on his platform before I stepped in that voting booth. But outside of that, Riley Freeman, per usual, stood and delivered. And he's right, you know. Real niggas DON'T follow directions.

Number 2, this morning I watched all the new episodes of VH1's Nigger Variety Hour (And A Half). IMO, Sonja Norwood got nerve for gettin mad at Bran'Nu and Ray Sr. for One Trick Pony's skripper shenanigans. But it reiterated something I heard a few years ago: "Mothers love their sons and raise their daughters." She is showing mad favoritism. And Bran'Nu got nerve to be rappin. If I wore weave often enough I'd buy whatever brand you got your forehead on but

Stop it.

Chilli gon be single fa-eva if she don't get her mind right. Aint nothin wrong with her standards but her approach is all kinds of wrong. Her negativity shows up 10 minutes to the date before she does.

And last but certainly not least, Basketball Wife(ves)/Divorcees/Baby Mamas. These chicks are silly. And it's not all of them but if your name is associated with the show your reputation is pretty much done for. Some peeps on Twitter were havin a fit (nonetheless still watching) about these chicks' behavior and how it makes the rest of us women look.

I AIN'T WORRIED BOUT THEM BITCHES! A real man will know a real woman aint about that silly bullshit. Point blank. And if a dude got the nerve to think that shit about me he ain't got no business near me ANYWAY.

But alas, lest we forget the reason a lot of chicks act silly in the first place.....A MAN. That dude Eric Williams?? Jennifer....babe....you gotta do better. You not ready to divorce him but you DON'T KNOW if you're still in love with him?! You gotta want better for yourself babe! I understand being used to your lifestyle and being reluctant to let that go, but you need to stop crying or step out! Be like Kelis and get that nigga for all he's worth if it's that deep but come on yo....gettin mistreated by a dude that looks like Grimace?! Aint enough money in the world. Dick better be the size of my leg for me to take that kind of shit. And good dick really is a dime a dozen. I don't know any chicks who've had more bad sex than good. So....yeah.

I also said this earlier, you tend to attract people of the same substance as yourself. So ladies if you keep pissin and bitchin and moanin about "aint shyt" niggas then you need to find the "aint shyt" in yourself that draws these Eric Williams cats to you like magnets. Same for you fellas. Don't cry about her bein a hoe if you need savin yourself.

........

I won't be a bitch and blog about last night. I'm better than that.

Well no, not really.

But I still won't do it cuz friends do fucked up shit and as long as it's not something like killing your dog or some shit like that, it deserves to be forgiven.

HOWEVER

I will never make that trip again.

Meanwhile, guess who's insured again bitches?!?!?!?! Bout to go throw myself in front of a bus and then pull out my Kaiser card. "Hmpf. Get to work muhfuckas."

Otherwise aint nuffin goin on but the rent. So until next time...

**Seacrest Out**

What In The Kriss Kross Hell?

Why the fuck is Chris Brown rappin? Is these niggas twins? The fuck is really hood?

LOL @ the Kat Stacks reference tho.

....The Hell Was I Thinking?

Hahahaha. Reading some of my posts below and laughing at myself. I was experiencing such an overwhelming feeling of unrest that I was ready to do ANYTHING to change the game! Going to school for dental hygeine?! I mean it really wasn't so out of the question but anyone that knows me knows that I can't STAND school. I love to learn but I hate the work that goes along with it. I guess that makes me lazy but at least I have the desire to enlighten and uplift myself, so as to not be the same woman today that I was yesterday. I'll read up on things that I feel I should know more about like the electoral college or the housing market or some shit.

But shit....dental hygeine? Joke's on you bitch.

Janelle Monae ft. Sir Lucious Leftfoot - TIghtrope

This video hit the net about 3 weeks ago and I just cannot seem to get enough.....

I never fully understood the tux-and-saddle shoes look until her recent Honey Magazine interview (courtesy of Necole Bitchie):

"What does your closet look like? Is the tux really your daily uniform?"

“Exactly like that. I bathe in it, I swim in it, and I could be buried in it. A tux is such a standard uniform, it’s so classy and it’s a lifestyle I enjoy. The tux keeps me balanced. I look at myself as a canvas. I don’t want to cloud myself with too many colors or I’ll go crazy. It’s an experiment I’m doing. I think I want to be in the Guinness Book of World Records.”

I can dig it.

I Love My R Double E E....

Courtesy of my daily dose of fuckery, Crunk + Disorderly

Semi-Charmed Kinda Life

I say this every time I come back here but I swear I'm gonna start blogging more often!! But in the meantime....

Dating is frustrating.

You meet a guy, through a mutual friend, work, pumpin gas on New York Ave., or through a social network. Pick your poison.

So you and said Sir hit it off. GREAT conversation, similar interests, and, lest we forget, the ever-important mutual physical attraction. Every night you tell yourself: "Just chill out. Don't over-analyze it, let it flow. Don't have any expectations...whatever is meant to be will be." But lo and behold, what happens? You catch feelings for Sir. And why wouldn't you? He's intelligent, articulate, carries himself in a respectable manner, and overall seems like a decent guy. A hot commodity, because you and every other woman with an I.Q. higher than a Barbie knows his type is hard to come by. He knows it too. But in this case, that's not even the issue.

The issue is, it just isn't there. Or shall we say, he's just not THAT into you. Yeah you all had your fun, a few good times, but that's it. Nobody's done anything wrong to any body else, and you had the good sense not to have sex with him. It just didn't work out. It sucks, yes, but you lick your wounds, pick yourself up, and get on with your life.

And the vicious cycle continues.

THEN, you've got your raggedy ass ex tryna weasel his tired ass back into your life. Or the not-so-raggedy ex tryna make his comeback like Jordan wearin the 4-5, willing and ready to give you everything you wanted and needed while you were together. And being the intelligent and ever-evolving woman that you are, you've grown since then. You want more. You need more. You deserve more. So neither one of those are the look you're going for. But the look you are trying to achieve, the ideal ensemble, isn't available in your size! You can't win for losing!

But as frustrating as this process may be, I refuse to give up. I believe each one of these men have come into my life for a reason, of course. The MEN. Not the boys that invite me out on my birthday to the bar, but not to buy me a drink (Let's not and say we did, okay?). Or the the ones that steal a pair of jeans from the mall. Nigga....YOU'RE 24!!! If you can't afford them, that's fine. But STEALING CLOTHES with two sources of income and 6 years of college under your belt (maybe that's the problem)?! FUCK OUTTA HERE!!

*Ahem*

I digress.

Like I was saying, I know each one has been placed to teach me and help me grow to become a better woman....COOL! But dammit can yall devise a new lesson plan?? Cuz this shit is getting real old, real quick!

I bet you think this post is about you....don't you? DON'T YOU?!

MISSED ME?!

Wishing I had the motivation to keep up with this thing like I should! Updates:

QUIT THE COLLECTIONS AGENCY!!! That job stressed me out like no other....collections is DRAINING. Besides getting cussed out everyday, several times a day, it was hard for me to press people out for money they didn't have. Now of course there must be a sense of ownership and accountability you must have in creating debt, but I can't very well hold you accountable for financial hardship when times are hard for most. And having people cry in your ear was the worst!! That definitely wasn't the industry for me.

So now I work for Comcast, basically doing billing and customer service, something I'm good at. Took a slight pay cut but as I learned with the collections agency, it's not ALWAYS about money. But I am making it up by saving in gas money cuz I'm closer to home, and of course FREE CABLE!!! Plus I'll be making GOOD commission. So I'm a pretty happy frikkin camper.

I TURNED 25 ON FEBRUARY 3RD!!! I'M A GROWN UP NOW!!!!

Comcast will be the first step to me owning my first home. The official goal is Summer 2012. Whether I stay in my current position or another I plan on staying with Comcast for the next few years and milking these discounts for all they're worth! So keep me in your prayers!!

Hopefully I'll be back sooner than later....*BESOS*

Real Quick

I was supposed to have been in the shower 20 minutes ago.

I miss you guys! I haven't been feeling very inspired lately.

I hate my job.

I left the bank (which I hated), to work in collections (which I think I hate more). As mean as I can be at times I don't think ANYone deserves to get cussed out on the daily. And yes, I knew what I was getting into before I came on board, but damn. It's not just that though. Some of my coworkers who have been there way longer seem just as unhappy. They've been in the industry way longer but there's so much BS with my particular company, I wouldn't be surprised to not see a coworker or two come back. It's very draining.

But with that said once again I'm on the job hunt. I took a few career aptitude tests online last night (and woke up to a few pieces of junk mail--oh joy), and one recommended I go into business. Business what? Regardless, not interested. The other recommended retail/hospitality. I did Victoria's Secret for two years. I went back for a quick buck Black Friday '08...in my Dave Chappelle voice...."MMMM NEVER AGAIN!" But hospitality....now that's a possibility. Hotel, that is, can't go back to food service, which apparently falls into that category. We'll see. I'll look into it. For now, Career Builder and USAJOBS are my current best friends.

Aight maybe I should go get in the shower. BESOS!